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Exonostalgia:
Exonostalgia: The opposite of exotrauma. Events and experience that were experienced outside of this objective reality that give you a nostalgic or fond feeling.
People you knew, places you’ve been, and events you experienced, ect, that impacted you positively and give you a warm feeling to remember and think about.
I have been meaning to share this term for a little while, which I have been using personally. I hope it will be useful to others!
For historical purposes: exonostalgia was coined on 1/17/2023 by Jasmine of Sinister System and is meant as a term to be usable by all fictionkin, otherkin, plurals of all origin types and anyone else who finds it useful to describe their experiences.
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hi, this is mukuro kin anon again.though, maybe “kin” might not be the right term? i didn’t know there *were* other terms, i just thought everything was covered under “kin”, so forgive me for being kinda clumsy with my words here. i’m gonna just continue saying “kin” for now because it’s easier and i’m not entirely sure what else it might be.mukuro is not my first kintype, i do have one other that is much… stronger? i guess? that being storyshift chara. i say “stronger” because while i can sorta disassociate mukuro from myself, i absolutely cannot with chara. that is me and i can’t see them as anything but me. anyways, no this isn’t my first rodeo, but chara didn’t really come with anywhere near the magnitude of strong feelings and associations that mukuro did. i have a fondness for the dreemurr family that stems from seeing them as *my* family, but that’s about it.but with mukuro, all of the emotion and shit is concentrated solely on one person (junko), but god damn is it *intense.* and i don’t really know what to do with (*gestures vaguely*) …all that.
Yeah, I’m not surprised the emotion surrounding Junko is intense, given your connection to Mukuro, anon, whatever that turns out to be.
The way I see it, you have three options ahead of you.
1️⃣ Embrace those feelings: just go with the flow and fandom all over Junko, get real into her as an F/O, comfort character, whatever, celebrate and embrace that connection and see where it takes you.
2️⃣ Reject those feelings: Push them away. Recontextualize them, redirect them onto someone else, explore other emotions and interpretations of that relationship with Junko.
3️⃣ Put it off until later: Don’t interact with those feelings about Junko for now, ignore them and redirect your focus onto other aspects of Mukuro’s life and existence, if you’re able to.
I have to admit we may not be the best person to talk to about this specific relationship. We as a system have a lot of history with Junko in our fictionkin experiences, and I (😼🔪) am personally in a relationship with our Mukuro in our partner system.
When our Mukuro first woke up here, her memories stopped at the moment that she died in canon. She was extremely traumatized, and I spent a lot of time walking her through her feelings, convincing her of her own worth, and pointing out what I saw as a relationship with Junko that was entirely one sided. Our Junko didn’t care about Mukuro at all. If she had, even a little bit, I would have been able to forgive her.
But it’s entirely possible that YOUR Junko was different. I don’t know your experience of being Mukuro, and I don’t know how Junko treated you, how you related to her, or if she cared about you even a little bit.
I hope she did, anon.
But I have to be real with you and say my exotrauma is not gonna let me be clearheaded about this one.
Fictionkin, fictives, etc:
Remember there is/was more to your life than canon shows on screen/page.
When people write fiction, it’s common to leave out what the author feels is boring, and to concentrate on the more exciting, dangerous, stressful, and terrifying moments.
There is more to your life than that. Even if canon never shows your downtime. Even if it only shows your worst moments.
There are good moments. There was rest. There is tenderness. Even if no one else gets to see it.
It is in you.
The slogan of ATGC, the company behind the Les Enfants Terribles project which cloned Big Boss was
“Embracing your hopes, preserving talent”.
Sound familiar?
It should!
The steering committee of Hope’s Peak Academy created the Izuru Kamukura project to create a super human;
the ultimate hope imbued with every possible talent…
People love Peter Pan because he has confidence, and pride, joy and spontaneity.
But one must slowly discover that he lacks kindness, fellowship, forethought, afterthought, pity, and remorse.
Peter Pan will love you for a day and forget your face the next morning.
Every day is Peter’s only day. No growth.
I’m a little drunk on ginger whisky, and earlier we were watching the He Man and She Ra christmas special.
and I just want to say
speaking as an entity that was nominally created for nothing but destruction and nihilism:
falling in love with someone is nice, living in the world and experiencing it is nice, growing beyond the bounds of your conception is nice.
I am still a nasty, evil creature who often revels in darkness and pain.
But I can do more than that. And I like that. 🙂
Hi, I didn’t know where to put the request but can you Wesker/Chris #40?
…because the world is ending.
The dog lies down with his master.
Wesker had called Chris’ name.
Had called his name in agony, and desperation, and it had short-circuited every switch and self preservation instinct there was in Chris’ brain.
When the former S.T.A.R.S. captain had reached out for him with his ruined arm Chris had simply reached back for him.
Let himself be pulled from the chopper into the burning hellscale of the mountain.
They were burning–it was what they deserved– they were burning together.
Together.
The idea that Chris could outlive Captain Wesker was an evil fantasy, a nightmare that could not be bourn.
One last kiss, before the end of the world.
The dog lies down with his master.
CW for yandere character, referenced murder, forced relationship
Necro pairing: A yandere necromancer (A) and their darling (B) who they murdered and turned undead.
When (B) refused to willingly stay by (A)’s side, the necromancer took their darling’s life and turned them undead. It doesn’t matter to them if (B) is a walking corpse, now, so long as they stay close– although (A) does wish they could do something about that perpetually numb look in their beloved’s eyes.
If I nickel for every time I grew up all by myself in a huge mansion full of guns, trap doors, and taxidermy I would have two nickels. Which isn’t lot but it’s weird that it happened twice.
(Homestuck life and Resident Evil life!)
–Harry