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It scares Leon, how easy it is to love.

It pours out of him like so much blood, and it hurts just as much, but he can’t stop bleeding and he can’t stop loving people, and he wonders which one will kill him first.

There are so many people he loves, and he resents them just a little for how easy they make it to love them.  It shouldn’t be easy, with how much it hurts.  But Leon keeps loving them anyway, because if he’s going to bleed either way, it might as well come with the sparks of joy that catch him off-guard, that twist of something that feels like hope that he might survive this.  

It hurts, it hurts so much he can’t breathe sometimes, when he lies awake at night, staring at the ceiling, scrolling through the names and numbers in his phone, clinging to them like a lifeline to keep him from drowning beneath the weight of everything that’s happened to him, all the names he couldn’t save.  He did save some of them.  They’re alive because he did something good.  It tastes like sugar mixed with ash.  

A photo and a name pop up on the screen, the phone buzzing in his hand.  A lifeline.  He smiles, easy as he bleeds, and answers.  

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Some People Have Real Problems

Harry Osborn can’t sleep. He gets advice from his dad.

Cw: mental Ilness, angst, insomnia

Harry couldn’t sleep. He didn’t know why. He’d gone to bed late, feeling shaky and half exhausted as usual, and yet here he was, lying in bed with his eyes open, staring at the grey light on dawn glowing behind the bedroom curtain. 

He’d been dreaming about something, hadn’t he? His father, maybe… Harry didn’t want to follow that thought any further.

He glanced over at the clock. Years ago, this would be the time he would have been getting up for school. It all seemed so simple, then. He wondered if it had ever really been simple, or he had just been naive. 

‘If I had a real job, this is probably when I’d have to get up for work, too,“ he mused to himself as he stared at the ceiling. ‘put on a tie, drink a cup of coffee and hurry out the door. Like in a movie.’

Harry didn’t have a real job. Oscorp existed and money just… happened. From a series of trusts, and stock portfolios, and men in ties who had real jobs.

Harry rolled out of bed, narrowly avoiding falling on his ass. He put his hands on his hip, and stretched out his back, before running his fingers through his tight ginger curls.

He wasn’t getting back to sleep. That much was obvious. He was starting to feel a tight heat in his veins, like a march of fire ants. 

The big house made him feel claustrophobic.

The big house made him feel like a lost dog.

He’d been dreaming about his father. 

It had been a nice dream.

Harry wished that he was still asleep.

He went to the bathroom and splashed cold water on his face. He made faces at himself in the mirror, looking at the tired dark circles under both his eyes.

‘You look just like me, kiddo,’ the voice of his dead father said. ‘Right before I kacked it.’

Harry ignored the voice, and thought, ‘I look just like him. Right before he…’

Harry dried his face with a towel.

He sat on the edge of the tub in the spacious, beautiful bathroom.

Some people had real problems. Some people couldn’t even afford rent. His own best friend couldn’t–

The thought of Peter brought bile into his stomach, and he put his head in his hands, squatting there on the edge of the tub in the dim bathroom for a long moment.

‘Aw, kiddo,’ his father sat beside him, and put an arm around his shoulders. ‘Why the long face, huh? Come on, I know just what will cheer you up.’

Harry looked up and gave his father a wan smile. The ghost offered him a hand, and Harry stood on shaky feet, following him through the house in the early hours of dawn.

‘What you need, my boy, is some fresh air,’ Norman lectured him jovially as they walked. ‘Can’t stay all cooped up in the house. Not good for ya. You’ll go a little stir crazy, if ya know what I mean.’

"Sure, dad,” Harry mumbled back as he stepped into his father’s drawing room, or library, or whatever the hell he called the damned place. 

His father waved him over to the secret door. ‘Don’t you ‘sure dad’ me, young man. Your old man knows what’s good for ya. I know I haven’t always been there, but you know I try my best.’

“I know, dad. Sorry." 

Harry stumbled on his way through the little alcove, bracing himself momentarily against the wall for support, before he shook it off.

He stood in the center of the strange little room while his father handed him pieces of kit, and watched him get dressed.

‘Man, kiddo, those abs,’ Norman grinned at him as he slipped into the light fitting flight suit. ‘At least you haven’t been skipping gym day, huh?’

He smiled embarrassedly. "The body goes, the mind goes, like you always used to say ”

‘Damn right, Harry,’ his father grinned at him. ‘Looks like you can listen after all.’

Harry slipped the head gear on and took a breath. “I do my best, dad.”

He slipped his boots into the locking mechanism of the glider and felt it hum to life underneath him, sending it’s thrum of energy through his body.

‘And I’m proud of you, son.’ Norman put a hand on Harry’s shoulder, and stepped into the glider behind him. There wasn’t really anywhere for him to be, aside from right up against Harry’s back, but that was fine. Harry didn’t think about it.

He brought the glider up, and out through the secret skylight, into the early morning New York air.

He took a breath as he rose, looking down at the city from way up high, and he felt dizzy. But at least it wasn’t the same dizzy he felt, laying in his bed, unable to sleep.

It made sense to feel dizzy up here.

Up here it all made sense.

“You were right, dad, this was just what I needed.”

‘Attaboy, Harry. Attaboy.’

The Green Goblin swooped through the skies of New York.

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❄ harry x peter?

There’s a year where both Aunt May and Norman Osborn are dead (or believed to be). Harry’s in the middle of his addiction, and Peter’s on the outs with all of his girlfriends.

Peter is planning to spend the whole night of Christmas eve patrolling the city, but he’s interrupted just before he’s going to leave by a very drunk Harry knocking on the door and singing a Christmas carol at the top of his lungs.

Peter pulls him inside– if only to stop him singing and the neighbors complaining. He’s only intending to let him stay for a few minutes, but Harry doesn’t seem safe to leave alone, swinging back and forth between broadly jovial, and on the verge of tears.

Eventually Peter decides that whatever’s going on in this city, this is the place he can do the most good that night. He makes some coffee, and calls in an order for chinese food, hoping to sober Harry up a little.

The heat in Peter’s tiny apartment is terrible, so they end up spending the night snuggled under the same blanket on Peter’s couch, watching “It’s a Wonderful Life” on broadcast tv and eating chop suey, before they fall asleep right there.

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Hi, I didn’t know where to put the request but can you Wesker/Chris #40?

…because the world is ending.

The dog lies down with his master.

Wesker had called Chris’ name.

Had called his name in agony, and desperation, and it had short-circuited every switch and self preservation instinct there was in Chris’ brain.

When the former S.T.A.R.S. captain had reached out for him with his ruined arm Chris had simply reached back for him.

Let himself be pulled from the chopper into the burning hellscale of the mountain.

They were burning–it was what they deserved– they were burning together.

Together.

The idea that Chris could outlive Captain Wesker was an evil fantasy, a nightmare that could not be bourn.

One last kiss, before the end of the world.

The dog lies down with his master.

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6 for weskertine please?

…on a falling tear.

Wesker carried Jill’s broken body in his arms away from the bottom of the cliff, cradling her gently and trying not to incur any further damage. He could feel her, limp and close to death in his arms.

She regained consciousness briefly, as he carried her into the bay of the transport craft. She was barely lucid.

He put a gloves hand gently on her face.

“Captain?” she murmered, looking up at him with fluttering eyelids, her eyes teary. She was so pale. “It hurts…”

Wesker watched a tear start to roll down her cheek, and he leaned in and caught it with his lips in a soft kiss.

“Stay with me, Jill. I will take care of you.

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20?

…on a scar.

You didn’t specify a ship, so the fates have declared valenfield (Chris x Jill)

He pulls at the device in her chest with desperation to bring her back, but his fingers slip when she makes a sickening sound and her body twitches. Years later he will kiss the spot between her breasts where the scar remains, and lay his head on her chest, in shared grief and memory.

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ok I actually want to just say doo all of that ask meme but if you just want some – 😢😬🩹!

😢 – What is the most hurtful thing that F/O has ever said to you, and vise versa?

The most hurtful thing the captain ever said to me was some variation at the height of his crazytown about how I was worthless or ‘not fit to be part of his new world’. Proving myself to him, and being good enough for him has always been a big thing for me, so that hurt a lot.

I think the worst thing I ever said to him was probably around the same time. I think I called him irredeemable. I donno if it even made an impact on him, but it hurt me to think about later.

😬 – Have you or your F/O ever said something to the other that you instantly regretted? If so, what was it?

Oh god, okay, I know this is supposed to be angsty but all I’m thinking of is one time when we were sparring, I meant to say “Come at me” to him and I said “come on me” instead. I wanted to die right there on the spot.

🩹 – Finally, despite everything, what is the reason you and F/O have always managed to patch things up and stick together?

I guess we’re just kind of obsessed with each other. I depend on him, and he depends on me, even if i’m kinda the dog in the relationship. I wouldn’t change it.

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We’ve been staying up late playing RE6, which is an absolutely abysmal decision.

And yet.

I suppose sometimes you need to soak in the horrors.

Around here it’s a chorus of each of us looking at the problems and saying “this is my fault”. And of course each rushing to absolve one another.

Ah. Love.

–AW