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hi, this is mukuro kin anon again.though, maybe “kin” might not be the right term? i didn’t know there *were* other terms, i just thought everything was covered under “kin”, so forgive me for being kinda clumsy with my words here. i’m gonna just continue saying “kin” for now because it’s easier and i’m not entirely sure what else it might be.mukuro is not my first kintype, i do have one other that is much… stronger? i guess? that being storyshift chara. i say “stronger” because while i can sorta disassociate mukuro from myself, i absolutely cannot with chara. that is me and i can’t see them as anything but me. anyways, no this isn’t my first rodeo, but chara didn’t really come with anywhere near the magnitude of strong feelings and associations that mukuro did. i have a fondness for the dreemurr family that stems from seeing them as *my* family, but that’s about it.but with mukuro, all of the emotion and shit is concentrated solely on one person (junko), but god damn is it *intense.* and i don’t really know what to do with (*gestures vaguely*) …all that.

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Yeah, I’m not surprised the emotion surrounding Junko is intense, given your connection to Mukuro, anon, whatever that turns out to be.

The way I see it, you have three options ahead of you.

1️⃣ Embrace those feelings: just go with the flow and fandom all over Junko, get real into her as an F/O, comfort character, whatever, celebrate and embrace that connection and see where it takes you.

2️⃣ Reject those feelings: Push them away. Recontextualize them, redirect them onto someone else, explore other emotions and interpretations of that relationship with Junko.

3️⃣ Put it off until later: Don’t interact with those feelings about Junko for now, ignore them and redirect your focus onto other aspects of Mukuro’s life and existence, if you’re able to.

I have to admit we may not be the best person to talk to about this specific relationship. We as a system have a lot of history with Junko in our fictionkin experiences, and I (😼🔪) am personally in a relationship with our Mukuro in our partner system.

When our Mukuro first woke up here, her memories stopped at the moment that she died in canon. She was extremely traumatized, and I spent a lot of time walking her through her feelings, convincing her of her own worth, and pointing out what I saw as a relationship with Junko that was entirely one sided. Our Junko didn’t care about Mukuro at all. If she had, even a little bit, I would have been able to forgive her.

But it’s entirely possible that YOUR Junko was different. I don’t know your experience of being Mukuro, and I don’t know how Junko treated you, how you related to her, or if she cared about you even a little bit.

I hope she did, anon.

But I have to be real with you and say my exotrauma is not gonna let me be clearheaded about this one.

Um…I hope you don’t mind, but reading all these posts about past lives and stuff has me really curious about something. Before you “woke up”, did you ever feel…wrong? Out of place? Like the life you were living was just…missing something? Like no matter what this world gives you, something is always going to be missing?I figured I was just mentally unwell. Delusional from all the trauma, or something. But both the idea of being a singlet and the idea of this life being the only one feels so…wrong, somehow. I should have magic. Not grand laser powers or flight or anything, but…something. There should be gods, and magic, and ways to tie the two together. I can’t really explain it. I’ve never quite felt like just one person, either. Even if I mostly don’t feel a distinct “shift” in who I am, it’s more like…I’m nobody? Not that I don’t know who I am, just that I don’t exist. Other times, there’s a clear and distinct feeling of somebody being there with me, somebody there to hold my hand and help me do things like cook, when I’m too anxious/unstable to do it “by myself”I guess I just wanted to ask if you’d ever experienced anything like that? And if you had any advice for connecting to a system, if there is any, that you can’t really…find.

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Hi anon.

Feeling wrong, and feeling out of place are exactly the feelings that I’d describe having before we awakened. What you’re talking about sounds pretty much like exactly what we went through.

Feelings like the world isn’t quite right, like we should be somewhere, or someone else. Feelings like we weren’t alone in our own body, or like we weren’t ourselves.

If you’re having feelings like this, I’d urge you to look into spiritual fictionkin questioning, and soulbonding.

Some great places to start are @fromfiction and fictionkin.org which have really good resources on questioning and figuring out if you’re fictionkin.

Also please feel free to send us more asks any time, or to DM us if you feel like you want to talk.