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Thank you so much for your post. I’ve been harassed to the point where I had to get hospitalized because my F/O is a minor in canon and everyone called me a pedophile even though I aged him up. I tried so hard to hate him and get away from him but I never could… Despite all this I still love him very much and I think I always will.

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Anon, I am so sorry that happened to you.

I was really hesitant to join the self ship community when I learned about it last year, because at the time, my most intense f/o was a high school student (Mukuro) and i had seen so much hostility from some people about that kind of thing.

You absolutely did not deserve any of the abuse or harassment that you received and I hope you know that.

I hope that you can break through those feelings of self loathing and find joy with your F/O again. There is always space for you in the proselfship community.

Liking a character who is canonically underage doesn’t make you a pedophile, and almost no one in the world would even suggest that it does. Fancops are the outliers.

Rant: I’m sick of being told to take accountability and to make sure others are comfortable because I fucking do all the time. Though it doesn’t matter how much you do that, the second you express your needs and want they turn on you in a second. Even if you are in pain.

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There is a word for people who demand that you cater to their comfort and needs while disregarding your comfort and needs.

Abusers.

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weaselle:

gwydionmisha:

recovering-catholic:

portraitoftheoddity:

respected-demon:

aphony-cree:

sonicrainbooms:

bloodyl1ps:

this post hasn’t left my mind since i’ve first saw it

people jest but this is literally how i worked out i was gaslit for like 15 years of my life

People who “want trauma” are recognizing, on some level, that they were traumatized but in a way that’s not “socially recognized” as trauma. What they really want is for people to see that they’ve been traumatized and be on their side

Hold up

I think it’s also important to talk about mental illness, and how the pain and trauma of being mentally ill as a kid is often diminished because of the lack of outside actors. If you spent your childhood being suicidally depressed because your wee little kiddo brain decided to be a chemical shitshow, it doesn’t matter how much mom and dad loved you, that kinda thing fucks you up. And having people only look at your external surroundings and argue that “nothing bad happened” ignores all the pain you went through internally. So wishing you could have something external you could point to in order to justify that pain and enduring stress – just so people could understand – makes sense. 

Posts that diagnose me, drag me, and rewire the synapses in my brain.

I’ve always felt that the reason kids who have been through trauma or most mental illnesses are attracted to darker themed media/books/etc..  It’s often the only place there is acknowledgment that things are not all right.  even if it’s just fictional, it’s validation.

this week on tumblr slaps me in the face with things i didn’t know i needed to talk to my therapist about

your f/os are all constantly waiting for the day that you finally fucking kill yourself :)

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Hi, anon. I understand that you’re going through a lot right now. The world is unfair, and it feels like there is very little in your life that you can actually control.

I understand that lashing out, and saying cruel things to random strangers online can make you feel powerful, and feel better about yourself for a little while.

I hope that you can work on your coping skills, anon, because as coping skills go, bullying others is a hollow one that leaves you feeling worse than when you started.

I can’t imagine you want to look in the mirror and think, this is the face of a cruel person who likes to bully others. I don’t think that’s something that will make you feel better about yourself.

In my opinion, if you’re feeling frustrated and angry, you should let those feelings out in a healthy way. Maybe draw some art that represents your feelings, talk about your anger to a friend, or write some fiction that makes you feel safe and empowered.

My ask box is always open to anons if you want to talk.

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benpaddon:

ivebeenonthissitetoolong:

thememedaddy:

Last year, I was talking with my mom about parenting and she said “well at least I never made you feel like I didn’t love you”

I proceeded to tell her about a time when I was a kid and she was yelling, screaming, and throwing things, and I said “I love you” in that small timid kid voice and she said

“well I don’t love you right now”

Our relationship was never the same after that and she didn’t even remember that it happened.

The axe never remembers, but the tree never forgets.

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average25jifan:

“proshitters DNI your f/os all hate you”

this feels super malicious…like they’re TRYING to give people a mental breakdown.

They are, and they feel justified in doing so.

In their minds they are punishing people, who they perceive to be bad, by hurting them.

They believe that they are justified in deciding who is bad and then attempting to hurt them as deserved punishment for being “bad.”

Hey just wanted to say that it’s cool to find another system who has similar beliefs on spiritual connection as we do! Also antis would absolutely despise me from the trauma I experienced to the way I cope with it because I somehow went thru a romanticized traumatic scenario bc the guy was a victim himself who didn’t know that it was wrong and thought it was another way of showing affection until he realized and kinda abandoned us which left me with really fucky feelings about all the memories. But even so it has always made us feel that comparing fiction to the reality we went thru is really insulting to us because none of the characters are real. Sorry if this is all a little trauma dumpy we just like how you guys are able to not let antis and other people hold you back. We’re still working on that. Also sorry for any possible spelling mistakes we missed we have dyslexia!

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Thank you for sharing your experience, anon.

We’re all really glad to know that there are spiritually oriented systems like us out there too.

Fancops/antis in general have a very back and white mentality and a lack of nuance in their understanding of trauma (among other things) which leads them to reject things and people that don’t fit their understanding of the world.

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black-rabbit-fiction:

crunchybutter:

People who are antiship do more harm to abuse victims then proshiper ever will. And that’s saying something because I don’t even like prohipers or there content. But at least they don’t go out of there way to harasses abuse victims, victim blame children, imply they consented to there abuse, and invalidate how life destroying said abuse is by saying fiction is just as harmful

You guy don’t care about victims that aren’t yourself

i’ve seen some straight up say to csa victims and such that “they should’ve been abused more” or wish their abusers had gone so far as to kill them…

I’ve seen that too, and its disturbing and upsetting every time.